Thanks to all the lessons learned and the inner work I've done...
I am journeying with this incredibly beautiful and amazing man. I was blessed and started 2020 with opening a relationship container with an amazingly beautiful, deep, hot, conscious, awake, vulnerable, integrated powerful and the most heartfelt man.
❤️We have a story as friends, there was a passion but no rush, and none of us expected this...
We know each other as friends/colleagues for nearly 10 years, then we got curious & felt each other in-depth for months, we decided to open a relationship container & first after that, we made love.
🧡Fruit of inner work.
When this happened, I silently smiled inside, knowing that all the inner work has led to this point. The point where am not needing or wanting, where co-dependent/pleasing patterns are not playing out. Where the highly independent ( and yes, slightly scared ) woman inside could slowly relax.... Where I know my worth and I won't compromise. Where am I and he is he and together we grow and support each other to grow too, committed to ourselves through one and another?
🧡Gratitude for all the lessons and payback!
I thanked Life for all the learnings, the fuck ups, the pain, the messy relationships along the way. All that I´ve learned about myself, that I didn't want and all that I learned that I wanted. I thanked my free spirit that has sought the many corners of the world, on the quest for meaning, truth, freedom, knowledge & depth. I felt gratitude for all the freaking painfully HARD lessons it has brought that profoundly increased fullness, self-love, and inner peace.
💚I have done what I can do on my own...
I knew it was time for another level. To meet those parts inside, that only can be met through an intimate, loving & conscious relationship. I believe - there is no other way around that. To shed deeper layers through Love & Purity & impeccable determination - are the ways.
💙There is no such thing as hiding.
The past in the shape of ghosts are arising, am faced with fear, doubt, sadness, and beneath that with the true longing.. and every time, I am committed to express it all, fully & honestly and every time I am being met with Love, Patience and Acceptance.. I am welcomed, for all that I am and more. And I melt. I melt open, surrendering to deeper layers I literally never experienced with a man before... he holds me, EVERY little part - weather they are charming or not. Through that, my heart, womb, and yoni are opening to depth... It's such a beautiful relationship it almost hurts, our love is simply deepening, growing, and merging. More and more, day by day...
💛I have only trusted ONE man in my life before, and now... I trust this one too.
Am blessed, and I know it. ( he is too 😉 )
What are the secret, the key to empowerment, and integration?
- self-care, self-love and self-activation. When am in more inner fullness and in love with myself, only then can truly journey with another.
To work on ourselves are the greatest gift we can give ourselves, children, and generations ahead.